I have to block out thoughts of you

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I have to block out thoughts of you
So
I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach

leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape

to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head
that make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride
a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you

. Will you never call again ?
And will you never say
that you love me ?

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?just to put it in my face
And will you never try
to reach me?

It is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see
what's good for you

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I'm sober now for 3 whole months

it's one accomplishment
that you helped me
withThe one thing
that always tore us apart

is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you
for holding my head up late at night

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While I was busy
waging wars on myself
you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions
on things like suicidal hate

You made me compliment myself
when it was way
too hard to take
So I'll drive
so fucking far away that
I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes
in your heart
to leave me behind

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Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things
I didn't do for you

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